Saturday, September 15, 2012

Wait, I'm Having a Senior Moment

I am a Senior!! I can't believe it. I have been dreaming about becoming one since I was 12. Some girls dream about Mr. Right or their wedding, but I dreamed about being a senior.

I know its kind of odd, but I am the youngest in my family so I grew up with people growing up and moving on to the next part of their lives. I always knew what I wanted to do, but I was just so far from it! But the time is here now and I can't even believe it. I will be 18 in two months. It feels like last week I was going into Cedarbrook Academy (my homeschool academy) as a 7th grader. Now I am going to have to plan out what's going to happen next in my life. I already know I'm going to go to school to become a nurse. After that, my plan is to get married and have a family.

I am thankful that my life its turning around and going the right way. As a teen there have been lots of ups and downs. But I have grown up and matured; I now know that God as a plan for me. You may ask how do I know that? Well I have had lots of downs in the last 2 years, but in the summer before my senior year He has shown me the light to my darkness.

If my Papa (my Grandfather) was still alive he would say “I'm proud of you my angel!” My papa and I always talked about my growing up. He may not be at my graduation but he is my angel now. I wear his class ring, because he is here for my senior year; he is with me every step. He can still see his angel grow up even if he isn't alive anymore.

We all have lost someone in our lives; but they are always there with you, walking with you in the hard and even easy times. I'm so thankful and happy that my Papa is with me for my senior year! I'm so blessed. 

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Perfection Deception

Lots of families want to be the perfect family.   But we all know that no one is perfect, so the dream of a perfect family isn't possible to have.  Some families even try really hard to hide the fact that they aren't perfect from everyone around them because they are too scared to let anyone know that their family's having problems. We think we are doing the right thing by hiding and lying; but we aren't. I don't really know if it makes things worse or not, but it doesn't make them better!

Sometimes a  family member just drops off the face of the earth. All the family says is they are away “finding themselves.”   But everyone knows that's just a nice way to say they “went off the deep end” and they just don't want you to know that their family isn't perfect.  But maybe if that family just said what was going on, they could get some help or even just have someone to talk to.  Someone they wouldn't have to hide from everytime they didn't want to be asked about how the was doing family! If this were you, you could actually tell this person what was truly going on. 

We are imperfect people because of sin.  Why would we even think that our family is going to be prefect?  It doesn't make any sense to me.  We are full of sin and we can't change that on our own, apart from God’s grace.  And apart from God’s grace, no one’s family can change, either.