You Never Know People!

I did it again! I always make friends with people who need my help. I think it's important to help people, but there is such a thing as going too far. I always seem to do that. Then, I get taken advantage of! And that's a bad thing! No one should take advantage of anyone.

They always say they care about me so much. So I want to help them so badly. Then, boom! Before I know it, they've taken advantage of me! It happens again and again. I don't know why I make that kind of person my friend, but i do! Maybe it is because I feel badly for them and want to help them! I have been a bad place and just wanted some help, but I couldn't ask for it! So I get closer to the people that need my help. That's a bad thing because I still need help myself.

Its so important that you pick the right people to be your friends, because there are lots of wrong ones who can make your life harder than it has to be. So I think you need to get to know people before you get to close to them. Its not healthy being close to those people either! We all need good healthy friends.

Growing Up

Every 18 year old wants to grow up and get out from under their parent's wings. But when you get to the time when you have more freedom, some people go overboard. They go out with the wrong guys, get tattoos, drink, smoke and stuff like that. They do all the things their parents told them not to do; as soon as they can, they want to, so they do it all! Its a bad path to take, but some of us choose one of them or all of them!

Becoming an adult is hard; there is so much you can do when you are an adult. You are just so tired of being told that you are just a kid and that you don't know anything. So you go off on your own to see what the world is like--not through your mom and dad's eyes, but through your own. You see its hard being an adult too. No one ever said it was easy because its not!

Becoming an adult means making the right choices. The reason we are adults and still in high school is because we still need someone to show us how to be an adult. Most of us need help knowing the right way to grow up. Its not like you say on your 18^th birthday, “Hey, everybody, I'm a grown up! I'm just like you all!” You turn 18 and then you work on growing up. You learn how to make good choice by being able to say no to the bad ones. It takes a lot of work, but you don't just want to sit around and hope you will grow up any minute. It doesn't just happen. Growing up is not easy but its worth it in the end.

What Kind of Friends Should You Have in Your Life?

We all need healthy people in our lives. They are the people that will get us far. We want people that will help us, not put us back into the dark place that we were in before. We need people that will be there for us no matter what!

Most of the time you have a few people that will only be there in the good times. When the bad times come—boom, they are gone! You don't want that kind of friend at all; they are no good for you.

It is good to have friends that are better than you are, because they can shine the light into your darkness. That will help you find the light in your own life. (There is a light in your life! It isn't all bad!)

If you have two unhealthy people together, things can only end badly. They will get into stuff they shouldn't. When you have a healthy friend to tell you, “Hey, Maggie, maybe you shouldn't do that,” it helps a lot because it makes you rethink what you're about to do. You say to yourself, “If my friend says I shouldn't, maybe they are right.” Your good friends will only want the best for you! They never want something bad to happen to you. What about a bad friend? Chances are, they just won't care what happens to you.

We should fill our lives with healthy people! They are better for us in the long run.

Family and Friends

My family and friends are the ones who will be there no matter what I did to push them away. I was having a hard time. But instead of reaching to them for help, I pushed the most important people in my life away. That just shows how bad off I was!

I didn't want their help, but that doesn't mean I didn't need it. Because I did. But in spite of the way I treated them, they never gave up on me. They tried and tried to get me to do the right thing, and I thank them so much for never giving up on me! They had the faith and hope I didn't have.

Because they didn't give up, I'm back on the right road! I will be getting better with all of their help. They are the people I should have had in my life, not the friends I thought cared. They let me go down the wrong path; that's not what I would call friends. Some of them even helped me go down the wrong way! My family tried to tell me they were bad for me, but I wouldn't listen. I told them, “No, no, no, its just that you don't like them!” But I now know my family was just looking out for me.

It feels great to have my family and friends looking out for me no matter how far from them I get. They are always going to be here for me. I know that now. Its the best feeling a girl can have!

Who is Right and Who is Wrong for You.

There are so many great guys out there. Unfortunately, there are also so many wrong ones. Sometimes it's hard to tell the good ones from the bad ones. I know. I just got out of a relationship with a bad one. I'm telling all of you about what happen to me because I hope my story will help you not to let this happen to you!

Every girl should have a good guy. But I didn't. The guy I was involved in always made fun of me. He told me how bad I was all the time, telling me about everything he didn't like about me and telling me what was wrong with me . When we were on a date it was ok. Then, when I got home he would text me or call me, just to and tell me how ugly and fat I was or how bad my hair looked. I cared about him so I always let it go.

I now know that deserve better than that, I really do! We all do! No one should let that happen to them. Because when you hear that stuff from someone you care about, you begin to think he may be right. But he wasn't at all! He was so wrong about me.

As girls we should never let a man tell us if we are good or bad! We know in our hearts what we are, and it is never what the rude guys are saying. Just remember that when they are tearing you down, they are doing it to make himself feel better. I'm pretty sure it worked for him!

It was the last straw when he told me to go kill myself and no one would care! After he said that, I told him we were done. Then, he didn't understand why I did that. That means there is something really wrong with him!

No girl should be in a relationship like the one I was in. That is no way to find the one for you! The one God has for you will never treat you like he did me. Don't let any guy treat you like he did me, please. It killed me to be with him. It will kill you too! It's not right at all.

The Mirror

The mirror was something I couldn't even look at without thinking something bad about myself. It's very easy to find something bad about yourself. Want to know why? Because we aren't perfect! We are imperfect, but that doesn't mean we aren't pretty! We all are so beautiful. God made us the way we are! Do you really think He would make one person ugly or fat to make them feel bad about themselves? No!

I have learned that when I look in the mirror to think about what I like about myself. There is so much good about me--much more than there is bad! That's a really hard thing to say about yourself because you are more likely see the bad then the good. You need to change your mindset in order to see the good in yourself. If all you do is think bad about yourself all you are going to do is feel bad for yourself! That's no way to live.

There is always so much good in everyone! I can tell you one good thing about everyone I know.  I really do know how easy it is to look down on yourself , but I can't even tell you how much worse it is for you! I even know a friend who has covered her mirrors because she can't even look at herself anymore. That's so sad to me because I know this girl; she is so beautiful, and I only wish she could see it too! But sometimes we are so blind to what we really look like. There are so many good things about us, we just need to see them! 

I'm Back!

I am going to get my life back in the right place. I am going to even make it better than before I went off on a bad path! I'm ready to change and be a better person.

I think some people go down a bad road just to get on a better one. I think that's what I'm doing as I write this. It feels right to be back being myself again! I kind of missed who I was before. Now, I am who was before but even better. It feels great, but I still have lots of work to do.

To even get where I need to be takes lots of work and will power. Its not like you can just say “I want to be a better person,” and then just do it! It takes lots of work and time. I had to learn that it just doesn't happen over night. When it does happen you have to keep it up. There are dark things in your life; you need make sure you take another way so you don't fall into them again. Its a big deal to be the person God wants you to be, because its who you were meant to be all along.

When you are 18 you don't really know who you want to be. After everything that has happened I know. I know who I should be, and I can't wait to become the girl I have been waiting 18 years to be. With the help of my family and friends, it will all be okay. I'm not going to say its easy, because that's not true. It’s not easy at all. But I know I can do it, with God's help.  

If Only You Were Here

I miss my Papa (my name for my Grandfather) with all my heart. My life would be so much better if he was here! He was and is my angel! He always knew the right thing to say. You would ask him if something was right, and he would say the best things back to you. He was a very wise man.

I believe if my Papa was still here we would all be living at home as happy as we could be. He was like the piece that every family needs; without it you fall apart. Something like that happened to our family. After he died we all started to fall apart; no one knows if his death was the reason, but I think so. We are doing alright without him, but its not the same as it would be if he were still with us.

Even though he's not with us, in a way he's still here. You go day by day and remember things about him. I do and say things and think about what my Papa would think, most of all what would my papa do?

I really do live to make him happy! I'm trying to be a better person. He will be happy to know I'm trying to change my life!